Another year come and gone…but I feel more of a sense of accomplishment tonight than I have on a New Year’s eve on a long time. Although I haven’t reached my own personal comfort level yet, I kind of smile when I think of where I was at this time last year-job I absolutely hated, stuck in New York, ill for some strange reason. The picture’s a lot clearer now. I know I have an illness, so I’m managing it. I’ve moved and am trying to get used to my new location, even if I don’t know how permanent a destination this is. I’ve met new friends even as I miss some of the old ones. I’ve reconnected with some people I never thought I’d reconnect with in a million years through Facebook. I started therapy. I started working out. I moved to a job I still don’t especially care for but I can tolerate a hell of a lot more than I could deal with hawking tee shirts.
Nevertheless, there’s work to be done. I would like to find a new job and leave RED once and for all-on MY terms. I’d like to date someone semi-successfully. While the whole Mike experience has been a huge buzzkill, I can’t allow pessimism to take over my life in that regard. Dr. Burke suggests that I try match.com, and almost guaranteed that I’d find a date if I used it. I don’t know, but I’m considering it. I want to get settled here, continue to expand my social circle, and continue learning and keep surrounding myself with positive people.
I’m confident that things will get better, even though I may not always come across that way. I know the day I lose faith is the day I lose it all. Sometimes, faith is all I have to go on.
Onward and upward, everyone. Happy New Year.
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Nice job man. You’ve definitely made some personal strides according to the conversations we’ve had.
My goal is to be just a tad bit of a better person every day for the rest of my life.
Here’s to a great 2009 for you.
GG